i've been feeling miserable lately. it's not that i didnt try, but i did try my very best to stay really really strong. i dont know if its pressure from school but arghhh i hate it when this happens. all i wanna do is sit down and cry and i cant even resolve what's in my head and wtf is bothering me. i really dont know what it is that's bothering me, i honestly feel that i'm losing my sanity. i have been nothing but mean to yan i really dont mean it yan when i get all bitchy and start slandering you for everything you say or do unreasonably. you've been nothing but amazing and i'm sorry. i fucking broke down during consultation today in front of lau chee meng it was so fucking embarrassing i was trying so hard to stop myself but i couldnt so i ran off and coop myself up with marjie in the handicap toilet. i dont know i hate it when people think i'm weak im not weak i've been really strong you guys know it. i dont know wtf is wrong with me this has got to stop. pisang i need to talk to you, you shall tell me what is wrong with me.

i am officially unstable.