my mind is so drained right now it really feels like it's all dried up in there.

i went to town with zidd didi sal and the rest today to get props and we went to lido and stayed till really late and because we didnt really notice the time i missed my last train to raffles place/city hall so i had to sit through the entire fucking red line alone and cab from jurong east. only god knows how much i hate train rides i felt so lonely even more so with so many strangers around me while im seated in my corner seat i felt terrible with so many things in my head; i was holding back my tears i never really felt so weak in such a long time; i was just wishing i could close my eyes to shut myself off the entire world, fumble forward and wake up only to realize im home on my bed staring at the ceiling.

until adee called. thanks didi you're my knight in shining armour charging towards my deep painful thoughts on your valiant steed.

fucking hell i sound so fucking emo.