has it ever been my choice that i'm so absorbed with school.
has it ever been my choice to a be a highly emotional wreck.
has it ever been my choice that all i can do is smile and laugh away every fucking thing people say to me, funny or not.
has it ever been my choice to be so analytical about shit that happens to me and then not ever talk about it and let people think that i'm fucking okay with every fucking thing.

has it ever been my choice that i am supposed to get over him.
has it ever been my choice that i fell in love with someone who chose to give me up.
has it ever been my choice to have to suck it up and move the fuck on when i'm still stuck in time.
has it ever been my choice to be such a fucking fool for you.

has it ever been my choice that every now and then when i need a fucking good bawl and then i look around and see that all my friends have their own set of problems and who the fuck am i to call people at 3AM to waste their time listen to me cry.

has it ever been my choice to be so fucking pathetic.
has it ever been my choice to fall in love.
has it ever been my choice to live.